My SOTP

Sex Offender Treatment Program

By Donald Wirkey

The treatment that I received was from [...] , located in the U.S.A. The treatment was conducted in a clinical services, under the name Sex Offender Treatment Program.

The clinical services department was a part of the brig separate from the dormitories that the general population of prisoner lived in. The psychologists that worked there were contracted by the government as civilians, but generally earned their degrees in the civilian sector and even run their own practices. There are approximately 5 staff psychologists in that department for all rehabilitative services to include drug treatment, anger management, sex offender treatment, larceny treatment, and alcohol anonymous (AA). So they generalized in about everything when it came to their clinical work. 

They also had military enlisted personnel who served as social workers to assist the psychologists. Generally, they did secretarial work and assisted in providing basic coordination of the group treatments so to enforce the rules and regulations. Generally, there was a psychiatrist that would appear every month to issue medication or to visit prisoners who needed counseling.

The scheduling of the treatment program went like this

The time of treatment was variable. There were 4 groups (A,B,C,D) split between the 2 dorms (A+B, C+D). Depending on the dorm and the group is when your time schedule was known. But generally the treatment program would go in cycles in which everyone had their own program and would pick up into the next quarter. 

Please study the accompanied description

Bob: finished s.o. education (6 weeks), picks up into S.O.T.P group D for "his" first quarter in January 01, 2000. He will complete first quarter at the end of March and pick up in "his" second quarter at the beginning of April. He will pick up with Seminar in his second quarter as well. So he'll finish his second quarter of S.O.T.P and Seminar - then the third quarter - then the fourth - then the fifth - then the sixth. He will complete Seminar, but will continue on in his seventh quarter S.O.T.P.- and then his eighth. Congradulations he completed S.O.T.P and now he'll be in maintenance till he is released.

Now at the same time Bob comes into group consisting of 8 other members - the 8 other members are at different quarters in their progression to completing S.O.T.P and other programs. They are more "advanced" then Bob so can offer him good feedback and assist him in his homework.

The actual time schedule would be the following

Now the setup of how meetings were conducted

S.O. education

To include all prisoner's with an associated sex offending crime. We would meet in a classroom like setting for one of the newer psychologist to teach us from a singular book on sex and sexuality. In this book would be the study of relationships, consent, sex anatomy, legal 
terminology, and basic sexual understanding for the introductory stage of S.O.T.P. Mainly this is the beginning of the treatment phase, where they will teach you everything you need to know about the basics of sex and sexuality.

*Just a note:
All sexuality and sex books that they provided us for learning was produced by that department of the navy treatment services under the mandating of the U.S. Government. Literally these were like photocopies of pre-typed pages from psychologists that actually worked in the treatment department under contract with the U.S. Government. There were little to no other material that we referenced or learned from. In effect, these were specialized for the treatment specifically.

S.O.T.P. 

This was to include all sex offenders who completed S.O. education. These meetings were conducted in a group circle. There would be 8-9 prisoners, 1 psychologist, 1 social worker in every meeting. 1 prisoner would be a group leader, and another would keep journal logs of the 
meetings. 

The group leader would coordinate the timing and subject of the meeting (not to say that there is already a preset way the meetings are always conducted). The journal logging consists of keeping record of who was present at the meeting, who gave their presentations, the timing of these events, and a little detail of every event. 

A normal routine to the week would be the first day of group would be individual notes on how the week went, if you jacked off, what did you use to repress "deviant thoughts", past deviant behaviors "i.e. masturbating to a picture of Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen", what your goals for the week are, and any problems. 

The next two group meetings are with presentation/feedback; presentations come from individual "quarter" assignments that the prisoner will prepare and read out to the group for about 15 minutes (or) to the digression of the group leader. Then the group will give feedback on the presentation, by either asking further questions, correcting the member, or giving advice about personal experience. 

Oh yeah, at the beginning of the first quarter of the new member, as part of review for the older members and to acquaint the new member there are preliminary rules such as; confidentiality, not to take things personally, don't interrupt, treat each other respectfully, don't give specific details of past criminal acts, be honest, follow rules and regs of the brig, etc. 

Now the homework assignments were to be done on your personal time back in the dorm. We were required to work during the day so we did have a little time to either use an Internet-free computer to type them out or to hand write them out for presentation. Generally, it was required that you show your AP (Accountability Partner), which was another prisoner who was much senior to you in group to review your work and to be there to talk to when you had problems. This was a weekly requirement for S.O.T.P., but I'll go into more detail later on in this report.

The Seminar

This was a five quarter once a week meeting that took place in conjunction to S.O.T.P, meaning that in addition to attending the S.O.T.P. meetings three times, usually on a Thursday we'd also have to do a seminar. 

Seminar was a combination of all 4 groups for those who were in their 2nd through 6th quarter of S.O.T.P. Now this was cyclical too, but to solve any problems each quarter had a major subject making a grand total of 5 subjects that we learned during the entire Seminar. 

Like I'd pick up in Seminar "Relationships", then "Victim Awareness", then "blah", then "blah", then finally "blah" where I'll be officially done with seminar and starting my 7th quarter S.O.T.P.

At the beginning of every quarter of seminar; you'd pair up with another person to present the week you choose to present a chapter from the book provided that you read for homework. You also turn in a written homework to be examined by the psychologists and returned. Usually when you were done presenting the chapter you read, there would be questions, and then you'd be dismissed to get a pass back to your dorm.

Maintenance

This is generally the most relaxed and anticipated part of the S.O.T.P., because after completing all the other bullshit this was an indicator that you were usually on your way out the door considering that the Miramar Brig was for those sentenced at "most" 7 years. This was a group 
consisting of all members who had completed S.O.T.P., Seminar, and sex education. Generally, we'd just give a brief synopsis of our week and maybe casually give a presentation (or) do a project that the psychologist would set up.

To conclude this would mean that you'd have to be discharged from the prison. 

My ecperience

Now don't get me wrong here, I liked some of the psychologists and group members who shared in the struggle of Sex Offender Treatment, but it is another ballgame from what the true "pedophilic reality" is. Yet, I'm sure that there can be some incorporation into each other, but it's the governmental stance vs. what they call a distorted fantasy version of pedophilia (mental disorder). 

To get through this stuff I really really really had to present myself under a complete different system of thought, feeling, and behavior. It is sort of unreal that I was able to do it and then slowly be converting as of now to the responsible pedophile (child lover) that I'm learning to be on the boards, but it's hard to practice that when I'm both a sex offender and an oppressed pedophile.

So to continue here is where I'll start getting into some details about the content of everything I went through; I have over (3) 5" binders that are packed with my work. I'm serious with this information you could get a complete understanding of how the U.S. government ideology is as well as in respect of my pedophilic history. Just these don't really consist of my "true" thoughts, feelings, and behavior as a pedophile in my life - I could probably fill binders endlessly, but this is just a critical example of my disbelief that I made it through the program.

I'm going to take you through the sequence of the material that I had to do and at what point in my treatment I did it

Naval Consolidated Brig; Sex Offender Education Course, 

120 pages - 1st handout book - remember what I said about these above/ produced specially by this department, the following were the things addressed in this S.O Eduction lasting 6 weeks. 

This was the beginning of the treatment officially. At this point I'd be waiting to get picked up into a S.O.T.P. group which would dictate the schedule and people I'll be with for the next few years.

The SOTP

This part of S.O.T.P consisted of 

Layouts

These consisted of 

The long layout had this outline: 

Now the short-layout 
consisted of all above, but with out your offenses. These "lay-outs" were to be presented on the first day of every week of the quarter. We'd go around the whole circle reading out our layouts and taking notes for feedback. 

Then at the end we all will give feedback to each other one at a time. Feedback is generally used to correct each other, to give suggestions that were proactive not reactive. In the middle of the group we'd have some tissue for the emotional moments and cards with words (distortion, rationalization, religiosity, etc, etc.) that we could grab to have priority at discretion of the group leader. 

The journalist keeps notes on everyone's presentation. 
Those notes are kept for reference at the time, but later shredded (at least I hope). But  apparently the psychologist I'm cool with stated that he fights giving away personal records to jurisdictions and there is barely any records except what prisoners complete in their treatment.

Now the various assignments that we do throughout the quarters go as follows 

I will only list the main title then to go into complete detail about them - just for time constraints. 

Now I forgot to tell you about 

the order of presenting that we do. 

For those two days in the week we present we go by numbers that we draw at the beginning of every quarter. Such as 2 will go after 1, 3 after 2, if someone is absent then we skip to the next- this gives an understanding of when things are due to be presented. 

All the assignments are above are assigned specifically in certain quarters as you progress through the treatment program, but by the end of the treatment you should be completely done with all assignments though you can be slow in your presentations where you overlap quarters or you may have re-do's. 

The autobiography and details about offense as well as intro to treatment are assigned in the first quarter to give the group a good understanding of your past, your knowledge, and your offenses.

The extracurricular assignments

Now the extracurricular assignments are unusual. Here's a description of each. 

Now the following are experimental, 

but all were provided to the general S.O.T.P individuals in hope of restructuring the mental attraction (arousal) to children. The book was called 'managing deviant sexual behavior';
masturbatory reconditioning/ verbal satiation.

Now the Seminar portion of the treatment, 

where we meet once a week during quarters 2-6. Seminar is a way for us to look at 5 issues more in depth outside the S.O.T.P. portion of the treatment. These five things were 

These are exactly as they say and I'll try to give a quick synopsis of each. 

Lastly there is the Maintenance Phase. 

Generally this consisted of an exit examination (stated in assignments above), an informal small-layout presentation, or projects to include victim awareness, or current events related to sex offenders. 

This is taken as the best part because it is laid back, but doesn't exclude what your thoughts and behavior should be at such an advanced stage in the program. If you fuck up in anything then it is taken seriously and could cause others to become judgmental of your progress in treatment.

Case conferences

Another important factor that must be taken into consideration is that the psychologists and social workers would have 'case conferences' between each break in advancement to go over with you your progress and assignment stages. 

This is an interactive way for you to gauge your progress, but it isn't a time for you to tell them what's on your mind. Prisoner's in the program try their best to give the impression that they are making progress so that they don't have any hindrances through treatment due to other prisoners or psychologists. 

It can become difficult at any time for anyone in treatment, because there is so much dependent on each other and it's so comprehensive over a period of long time. A few prisoners struggle, some do bare minimum without struggling, some try to change but struggle, some actually change without the struggle. 

Looking back 1 - emotionally

I was thinking about my past sex offender treatment and about everything they were telling me.

Must I go on?

I can guarantee that there are hundreds of more things that I insightfully learned about myself being pedophilic through this treatment that is supposed to "help" me.

They don't speak about the history of pedophilia, the culture of pedophilia, ways to deal with people who oppose pedophilia, ways to cope with persecution or discrimination, ways of life that I can stand up for my rights to defend myself.

The main thing they stressed through the 3 years of treatment was how bad and sick of a person I am for being pedophilic, and how to control myself so that I would have "No more victims."

When I first got out of prison I walked around like a zombie, and every child I saw I became scared, depressed and suicidal. It reminded me of the days when I was growing up 12, 13, 14, 15,... and feeling the same way. 

Not understanding myself, feeling entirely negative about my state of being, feeling like I deserve to die. "I deserve to die." This was the clue that told me that something is wrong 
with my thinking. I had distorted thinking when I thought that as a young pedophilic teen, now I was thinking the same thing. Why? Because that was their stupid ass treatment.

I vowed at the age of 15 to become a revolutionary to fight the oppression of pedophiles and the repression of childhood sexuality. I did that because to believe otherwise would mean that I was suicidal, because my true thoughts and feelings conflicted with societies reality.

So here I am, I thought back to that time in my past and it didn't take but a fraction of time that it took me back then to figure, I'm going to give up my life to being a revolutionary.

But here's another question: Because of all the negativity that has engulfed me throughout my life being pedophilic whenever I'm around children I feel unworthy and disgusting. I get this feeling of dehumanization that flows through me like I'm an alien on a foreign planet that doesn't want anything to do with me, or would rather kill me, because I'm fucking sick in 
the head. I look at the child and think about how I wouldn't harm a fucking fly, but I'm this child's greatest threat in life.

Only after a few moments do I stabilize in my thinking and realize the monumental truth of my existence as a pedophile, the pride I should feel for being one, and how the majority of society distorts my reality to fit theirs.

Looking back 2 - rationally

I tried to change with a mediocre of difficulty throughout the treatment. I was probably the purist of pedophilia in the entire treatment, but I could identify others who were like me, but for their sake kept their opinions to their selves. Because there were non-pedophilic individuals in the treatment, I say this for those who got caught up with a child 14 and up who'd otherwise present themselves as mature adults in these guys fantasies. Plus most of these guys engaged in the act for their first or second time without much consideration of it. 

I became very insightful of everything that they were presenting and trying to get me to believe, and I have to admit that in a certain degree it made sense. But it is inconsistent with what is really real in the world. Such as children being sexual and with sexuality, children having the ability to choose if they want to learn about sexuality or engage in sex play consensually (to include adults), the pedophilia is natural in humanity and has existed throughout all of humanity with it's rich history, and that present day society is deteriorating because they are repressive and oppressive to human nature (i.e. pedophilia and child sexuality). 

Politically correct thinking

They failed to issue the human rights issues that are going on against pedophiles and they failed to recognize pedophilia other then for negativity and mental disorder based off of taboo. They generalized everything, literally, to include all sex acts against children are harmful period, that all pedophiles are dangerous and harmful to children, and that all pedophilic/child sexual acts are inappropriate and unnatural. They went even further to say that sex is a matter of capacity which only adults can agree to, such as if it were purely a binding contractual agreement that had disastrous effects if not done perfectly between people of perfect equality.

At the beginning of the program I did try to address some of my concerns so that we could discuss them, even though I was severely limited on my pedophilic knowledge and in my development at a pedophile, even know I'm still developing since I was repressed from doing so in my childhood. 

Yet, you must understand the processes they took all my conversations to avoid the subject. If I addressed something such as "well, according to you some of my victims had consented to sex, but not legally." Then then the group would look at me perplexed and hysterically because I was brave enough to address in it group, then the atmosphere would become politically correct so people gave me feedback on what the program "wanted" to hear, and the psychologists wouldn't even reason but would refer to terminology and completely illogical references to the point that I'd quit because of the idiocy of it all. In response to that I'd get like "your being distorted because children cannot be sexual because they don't know what their doing or getting their selves into." 

Distorted thinking

Then another follow up would be "if everyone in group is saying that you're distorted, then you should know that your thinking is distorted." This is where we would get off topic by referencing illogical things and terminology. I'm trying to address the issue, but they take it to a superficial level that is based off of political correctness, cognitive distortions on their part, and hysterical appellations that really have nothing in reference of what I'm talking about. 

You see what I'm saying, imagine your advanced in such a group where you have the processes down to the dime so that things go smoothly. All of a sudden a new kid comes in raising the real issues again where we all know how it's going to end. 

Brainwashing

Yeah, that's about all treatment is about - avoiding the real issues and truths, and basically focusing on 'brainwashing.' I don't like the word brainwashing, but maybe cognitive restructuring to reflect the paranoid hypocritical hysterical anti's who love violating human rights.

Alright, I'm getting off topic and it seems that my report is getting opinionated and unprofessional. So, I'm going to end with the letter of completion that my leading psychologist - the one that I can learn to respect despite our differences. 

To Whom It May Concern:

Mr. [...] participated in and completed Phase 1 of our Sex Offender Treatment Program (SOTP) from [...] to [...]. After starting the SOTP he correspondingly completed Sex Offender Education Classes from [...]  to [...]. 

The SOTP is a comprehensive, specialized cognitive-behavioral treatment program that includes physiological assessment, intensive structured group therapy, psycho-educational seminars, training in cognitive-behavioral management techniques to avoid aberrant sexual 
behavior, and relapse prevention training. 

The psycho-educational seminars include cognitive restructuring, victim impact training, cognitive and behavioral arousal reduction techniques, relationship skills, sexuality and relapse prevention training. Psychiatric consultation and assessment are also available. 

Phase 1 consists of participating in group therapy 3x weekly at 1.5 hours each and attending the psycho-educational seminars 1x weekly at 1 hour each. 

After completing 24 months of Phase 1, Mr [...] also attended Sex Offender Maintenance Group (Phase 2), which met 1x weekly at 2.0 hours. He did both Phases to allow him maximum participation in the SOTP prior to his being released on supervision (MSR). 

Mr. [...] made many positive changes in the SOTP and will continue treatment in the community. It is anticipated that the progress that he made while confined will continue while he transitions in to the community.